Thursday, June 29, 2006
Just a random thought
Sigh ok i admit. I just don't seem to be able to keep everything together. Life to me seems like a pyramid of cards. You carefully stack it level by level, trying your best to make sure every card is precise, accurate, Perfect. The higher you go, the more fragile it gets, yet the sense of satisfaction is much greater than that of the previous level completed. Once in awhile, a gust of wind might come by. You shield the it with everything you've got, in hopes that all your hardwork and effort will still be standing high, unmovable, wanting it to be invincible. As you go higher you will start looking down more often, back to the beginning, and realise that some of the cards are just a tiny fraction off from being Perfect. You start to ponder if it's worth the risk re-adjusting those so that you will have a better foundation, to feel more secure. All you did was prod. Well, you know in life, shit happens. Everything you've worked so hard fall comes crashing down on you, all gone in a wink of an eye. What do we do? Some give up. Some get frustrated and hurriedly tries to stuff everything back into shape, only to be met by dispair when collaspes again and again. Some continue on, with each mistakes comes more care and patience, and finally they too will realise that it's not wheater you reach the peak or how high the pyramid is that matters, however they will come to understand and realise that nothing is Perfect and it's what you learn in the process of building it that matters.
Hahas. So now i figured that i won't try digging up the long gone past, but i'll rather go back a few steps and try to make things alright before attemping the next level. So what i have planned in store for the future will have to wait. For now, i'll sorta like travel back in my mind into the past few weeks and try to rectify those unstable cards in my life which threatens to disrupt my peace in the future. If the card doesn't fit well or simply doesn't go along wif the rest, I guess i'll have to remove it and start rebuilding from there onwards. Wish me luck.
posted at 5:16 PM
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